'bi-whatever, matters not'

'bi-whatever, matters not' timothy r gates 3/23/2011

jumped up,
out of a dead sleep
thinking, 'shit, this was all a dream?'
bottles were not lined up,
dominoes gone down
no one telling me,
'it'll get better - in time.'
prayed, 'please let this be a mere dream.'
not dead
bottles readied for each day
just to be normal,
whatever the f' that is
(I know)
bi-whatever, matters not,
certainly means buy a lot, or
back to listening to diagnosis-prognosis
(once when my young daughter was younger,
she asked, 'Doctor, can you give my daddy
a pill so he'll like camping?' adorable non-dream)
Linus' blanket
reminds me to pinch myself -
it's as real as it gets.
agnosis, this i know